about "that"

I don't even know what to write.

My mind is full of you, flooded with your memory, your image, your smile...

The kind of desire I feel for you is so great that I can feel you running through my veins.

and here it is, the diary of my hidden desires..

I'm only writing to tell you how much I want you,

how much I want to feel your touch, your caress,

to feel your breath close to my neck.

My breath is taken away and my legs are tingling

at the thought that I could have you close.

And no, I will not even talk about love today.

I will only describe you my fisical desire ...

I must! I have to tell you,

to get these words out of me,

because the desire to feel you is so great

that it has become too painful.

I want you! It's simple,

I want to feel your whole body inside me!

I want to feel myself full of you,

to feel your skin on mine..

..aghh,

I think I would have a panic attack

if you were here right now...

in this armchair in front of me,

if you were breathing the air

in the same room as me...

Boy, you make the blood freeze in my veins!

I want you so much that

I could never put „that”

into words...

All I can say is that

I want you so much

that I would let you

tear the flesh from my bones.

I want you so much

that I would let you do

whatever you want to me.

whatever pleasure

you would have,

I would let you do it in me!

I would completely abandon control

in your beautiful hands.

I would like to feel

your long fingers deeply

embedded around my neck!

I would like you to slap my face, spit in my mouth, look down on me and tell me:

"It's ok now, I've arrived home"..

I would put my hands deep inside me,

I would take them out full of blood and

I would paint you from top to bottom

bright red,

enter me and never come out...

I want you like that.

To confess, this "little" obsession

I have for you

scares me,

but I can't stop it.

The thought that

you could be right here,

in the same city,

makes me feel my vagina getting wet.

I try to calm down

so that I can imagine further

the moment when you will

hug me from the back ...

and then, suddenly,

you smell my neck closely

with an extraspatial desire,

you raise my hands up,

and my body softens and

opens completely to you.

Enter, Enter me deep, please, I beg you, enter my darkness, shine light from my cunt.

I look at the sky through

the crack in the window,

I see the stars and I know

that the same sky covers you.

We are together now.

I don't even need

to have you close.

You can be billion miles away,

I feel you anyway.

It is enough to close my eyes and feel you here, with me,

I feel your emotions, I understand your thoughts.

I close my eyes, you are in me right now,

because the connection between us is so strong,

I feel you so deeply in my being....

come over..